We all have unmet expectations in our life. Everyone of those affect our relationships. Even our relationship with God. We can slip into contract living. What I called capitalistic Christianity. Some of us have lost our joy. Some even our reason for living. Some have bitterness and resentment toward God because he didn’t do the things, we thought He should. You need to confess that. You need to free yourself from that. Sometimes we need willful love toward God. That’s why when we call people to Christ, we called it placing your trust in Him. It is a willful act. We have to choose to trust Him.