You don't have to suspend reason to believe in the resurrection. The evidence and over 2000 years of experience affirms that Christ did in fact rise from the dead. This confidence gives us assurance that our future is secure--that we will be with Him and we will be like Him. Christ is over all and I have confidence that He was risen for my future.
Jesus made a mission statement: “My purpose is that my sheep will have a rich and satisfying life”. Your purpose is to realize that Life in Him. You can realize it by living in His peace, embracing your purpose by forgetting what is behind and pressing on and tapping into the power of the resurrection that lives in you. I know you feel like you get farther away but you are not. Take heart people of God, Jesus has over come the world. Resurrection power lives in you right now.
You can experience the resurrection today by choosing to place your faith in Jesus Christ. He is risen! He rose for our past to restore you to who He says you are. His son or daughter with all rights and inheritance. He didn’t come to condemn us. Through the blood He shed for us on that cross as a sacrifice we can have new life in Him. This is where mercy and justice meet at the cross.